FUCKER !

ney first time aq mencarut dalam blog aku sndri . urgh ! bengang yerrr ! aku baru je happy2 then tuptup ! ader plkk citer ta best yg klua! aku ney dah laa tension je . please laa .... tayah la na kacau hidup aku lagi . aku dah penatt la dgn sume drama yg korg sume cetuskan . korg sndri tuu tataw pematt er na kje an hidup org lain ? babe , insaf jelaa . ingt allah . lagi bgos . dripade korg buad n tmbah dosee2 korg tuu and buadd tmbh dosee2 aku je na bengang2 neyy . korg tuu pon law ta puas hati sgt , jmpe jelaa . face too face ! jgn na tunjuk lagak jee . aduuuhhh . penadd la na lyn org yg bnyk propaganda mcm korgg neyy . or org yg sebarkn citer kat aku yg buadd2 citer sbenarye ??? coz aku pon plikk sikit an sume bnde neyy . num o17 ? sape dam family aku pki num ney . tade sape . except num aku je . 
    korg pkirla sndri . sape yg sakit an hati sape .. !

alisya qistina ..

     isya .. nme pgglan ku . aku hidup dalam kesilapan manusia yg bergelar orang tua ku . aku ta pham ap sbenaryer yg di ingini oleh mereka . mksd aku , remaje seperti mereka . knpe msty mereke melakukan sesuatu yg berada diluar kewarasan sebagai pemikiran manusia yg seharusnya sewajar perbuatan mereka . mungkin meteka pkir bahawe hidup ini adalah sesuatu yg tidak harus dipikirkn dgn pnjg . dri segi mase depan atau pon akibat yer .
     kini aku hidup dengan sebuah keluarga yg bahagia dan serba mewah . dalam kekacauan kemelut menghadapi masa sebelum aku dilahirkn , keluarge yg dinamakn keluarga muhammad ini amat berwibawa . aku terpaut dgn cara mama and papa didik anak-anak mereka dengan penuh keprihatinan .
     papa ta tegas pada kak isyaz , abg isyaq , isya , and isyal . tp papa kawal perbuatan kami semua . tp papa ta kongkong hidup kami . and papa juga ta terlalu bebaskn kami . papa mempunyai cara dea yg tersendiri . and papa te pernah ta terpikir untuk meluangkn masa tuk kami semua . papa pndi menguruskn mase bersame keluarga . papa akn dgar masalah kami semua . papa jadikn kami seperti kawan baik yg sentiase ader disisi kawan-kawan baik yer .
     mama ! seorg yg agak lembut . masakn mama sedap sgt . isyal anak yg last . isyal la penghabis semua makanan yg dimasak oleh mama sebab isyal lah satu-satunya anak mama and papa yg kuad makan . lagi2 makanan yg dimasak oleh mama .

alisya qistina ..

hidup sya ta sebahagia hidup orang lain . sya rpt an ayah n ibu , tapi ta serapat sebiasanya . sya ta berapa

reminding ..

2o june 2o1o > birthday abg syafiq :)
27 may 2o1o > birthday kak shah :)

first trip vacation to MALACCA :)

27-28 november 2o1o is the best moment . otherwise , we went there in five . not four like usually . and also have an addition that becomes six . although im not in this picture because im the photographer . :P

ney mase tunggu na naik menara taming sari , malacca .

its been first time we went vacation with our new person in our family. it was great . an awsome memory's :) and although we went there just two days one night , it really worth it :) . so much time we spent together ^_^

abg ate muke yaya am alien ! haha !

ala yg comel !! geram yer an ala neyy !!

pkck beca ney sebok je ! tp beca yer lawa an :)

ney beca abg n akak . lawa lawa ! unik :)

kerusi panjang umur (bak kate orang cine ) ..

emm . ta saba pulak na gerak gy cameron higland on 7-9 december 2o1o . msty lagi bnyk kenangan at sane . lagi2 gy sane gne nikon D31oo . msty best giler ! ala pon tade penad-penad . kali ney gy sane bawak stroller ala . :)

>cant wait !!!! cameron higland ! next week ! shopping , posing , laughing and memorising !!

fake !

i dont know who i am . my mind is here .  but my feeling is not here . my feeling is far away astray from this world . i cant even think there is some bad attitude of mine that i cant control . i keep mad at myself . say those dirt word . mad at every one . urgh . its make me sick . i dont know how i can be like this . i want my self back . MY OLDSELF BACK  . keep my soul peace again . depth of my heart that feel safety . how a bout now ? did i feel better ? can anyone make me feel more better ? why cant i get my self back ?


* he give me a message . he ask about me . where i disappear my self . he thought that i've forgotten him .. but im not . i just astray in my own problem . i cant get close with him for awhile . otherwise , he got he own wife . but im really happy because he still remember me . i know he always remember in his mind :) and after i reply his message , he doesn't reply mt message back . urgh . frustated :( ! but its oke . i understand he . he always like that . hehe . anyway , i stiil love ,my bother :)


* he always keep me company . thanks . you always be there when i need you :) and also always understand me where anyone else cant understand me . you fully trust me . you fully sincere friend with me . i will pay back what ever you give at me . i never found a man like you . your heart is really pure :) thanks for being so nice and sweet with me . i always remember you in my mind , my world , my heart , and my soul :)


* adik also always miss me . like i always miss her :) i love you my little sis ! always love you . because you smart to making me smile :)


conclusion : i really astray . i cant get my own self in my world . im in big problem . and i really dont feel like a normal person :(

happy , sad , down , bad mood , cheer , hate . (?_?)

urgh ! twnsion yer skunk ney . pnang pale yaya . sian at syafiq . yaya dah lme ta contact dea . maaf yer . yaya tga ade masalah . problem family , kwn yg menyakitkn hati stiap hari , dilema perasaan trhadap dia .


     kawan : npe lah dia ta paham . and tak reti tak paham . stop pushing me ! i dont like it ! its my work . i know it worth it ! of                  course it worth ! i do i by my self . with my own hand . you dont know me . so dont talk behind me ! i know you did ! you dont have to hidden it from me ! i knew it shit ! i hate you now ! i hate ! full of hatred of you ! i hate you ! wlaupon yaya baru je at sini , tp yaya bnci kaw ! kaw buad yaya bnci kaw ! kaw tayah la nak ugut2 yaya . yaya ta mati dek ugut2 kaw tuu . yaya tak termakan sikit pon at ugut ney . bole gy mampos la !
   she : can you stop scolding me ? its not my fault . can you understand me for awhile ??
   feeling : pneng yer pale . mcm2 jadi . perasaan ta stabil lak tuu . urgh . mcm mne lah yaya ney skunk . ap lh yg yaya nk skunk ney ? ,,mm . perasaan ,perasaan . ap yg dimau kmu ? diri tuan empunye perasaan suda mengalami tahap maksimum kekeliruan .. mm . hope pas ny perasaan ney bole stabil balek . mybe because yaya ta sehad kud . i hope so .


now , exam is end . school also will be ending soon . tomorrow is our last day for schooling season for 2o1o . what im going to do when my holiday ?? mm thinking . something good . and awsome . hope it worth it . my work . of course it worth !


love my buddy ! love my bff ever ! nabila huda !